Saturday, November 27, 2010


I am SO thankful for my family and friends, all the people who make it a joy living.
I was never really into the whole holiday joy cheer thing whatever... but for some reason this year I really feel the holiday spirit. I think it has to do with my brothers leaving home. I mean it's truue you never know what you have until it's gone. So I'm thankful for my brothers that even though you guys are far you still mean a lot to me and the family. I'm just thankful for everything.
Happy thanksgiving darlings. ♥

Thursday, November 18, 2010

I've decided I'm not going to open up to people anymore.
Except on here.
Because one thing for sure is that you don't know me and you won't judge me.
I completely poured my heart and soul out to this girl I've been friends for 4 years.
I though I would just tell her what had been going on.
I let my guard down... and sure enough she screwed me over.
By 3rd period most of the girls knew what I had done... who I had done it with, what I had thought, and what I had said.
The world is full of backstabbing bitches.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Everything in life is connected somehow. You may have to dig deep to find it but its there. Everything is the same even though its different. Somehow everything connects back with your life. The faces in certain places may be different, but the situation is the same. Irony is a hidden factor that creeps around us in life, letting its presence felt only after it has left. Picture back to a year ago and the situation you were in. Look at how things are different yet somehow everything it still in someway cognate. Everything connects together to form the balance of life, to maintain structure. Change is and always will be inevitable, but everything is relative, and all the moments and times in your life will come back around again, you just might find yourself on the other side of the coin. Things are always changing, as fast as everything stays the same.

Monday, November 15, 2010

why do we always wan what we can't have?

I'm not afraid of people around me, I'm just afraid of rejection.
That's what keeps me bound up in chains.
That word terrifies me.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

I need a prom dress.
Any ideas?

Friday, November 12, 2010

I don't love the way you lie.

I'm a girl.
I'm alone in a big world that keeps going and doesn't slow down.
I wish to get off this big world.
I wish to fly.
I wish to fly away.
Far far away.
Reinvent myself.
Become the person I want.
No pressure.
No pressure.
No pressure.


Sunday, November 7, 2010

I feel my heart sink every time I begin to say your name... I block that thought out. I block out everything that reminds me of you. It's hard since EVERYTHING reminds me of you.
Your smell.
Your touch.
Your lips.
Your voice.
Your smile.
Your laugh.
Your eyes.
Your soul.
The very thing that kept me going is holding me back. I'm stuck in the past. I like it in the past. It's simple. Just you & me. That's all we need love.
I would give everything to have it be like that again.
Life's a bitch.
Love me again?