Saturday, July 31, 2010

What do YOU want to do before you die?

So i found a picture.
I found this picture.
And it got me thinking.
I want to do plenty.
Here's my list.
• Sky-dive.
• Go skinny-dipping.
•Learn to speak a foreign language and make sure I use it.
•Watch the launch of a space shuttle.
•Learn how to take a compliment.
•Be on T.V
•Write a letter.
•Send a message in a bottle.
•Get to know my neighbors.
•Plant a tree.
•Learn to say NO.
•Visit the Senate or House of Representatives to see how Congress really works.
•Learn to ballroom dance... properly.
•Learn to ACTUALLY dance.
•Be THE boss.
•Sit on a jury.
•Write the novel I know I have inside me.
•Be Someone's mentor.
•Stay out all night dancing and go to work the next day without having gone home.
•Shower in a waterfall.
•Ask for a raise.
•Teach someone illiterate to read.
•Write down my personal mission statement, and follow it.
•See a lunar eclipse.
•Experience weightlessness.
•Sing a song in front of an audience.
•Drive across America, coast to coast baby.
•Write my will!
•Sleep under the stars.
•GET SOME hah(:
•Get rich.
•Accept myself for who I am.
•Create my own website.
•Run to the top of the statue of Liberty.
•RUN a marathon.
•Visit the Holy Land.
•Go up in a hot air balloon.
•Be on Jersey Shore.
•Set foot on each of the seven continents.
•Swim with sharks and dolphins.
•Climb an active volcano.
•Photograph an endangered species.
•Spend 24 hours with friends in the jungle.
•Attend Art shows in New York.
•Attend music festivals in other countries.
•Attend the Olympics(:
•Take a leap of faith.
•Forgive people.
•Climb the Great Pyramid of Egypt.
•Fall IN love.... helplessly and unconditionally♥

So my question to you.. what do you want to do before you die?

Friday, July 30, 2010

an hour and forty-five minutes.

That's how much I ran for.
Okay... walked/jogged/ran/crawled.
Needless to say it was quite invigorating.
It was terrible too.
But beautiful at the same time.
I think my new found love
is waking up while everyone is still asleep and just
run/walk/jog/crawl haha.
Nature never looked so pretty.
Tomorrow @ 6 a.m baby.
Hope I keep this up.
I want this.


I need to loose weight.
I'll go anorexic I don't care I just
want it gone.
ALL of it.
I don't want to be like this anymore.
I feel disgusting.

I'll stop complaining and do SOMETHING.
I need to.
I think I've finally reached that point.
I've reached it before but I just indulged
myself with more food 'cause I felt so bad.
Naw, I'm for sure doing something.

Nobody has ever called me a 2 foot
500 pound girl.
I bawled.
I bawled so hard.
I broke.
Over that?
Wouldn't you?
I guess I'm just mad I let myself get this big.
Oh. I'm not 500.
I think that's what clicked.
I didn't eat yesterday.
Just drank water.
AND went running at night.
I felt as if I was gonna collapse.
My body isn't used to it.
I need this.
So bad.

p.s food is now officially my enemy.

Monday, July 26, 2010

Behind the Scenes.

Life's complicated.
There's so many things I wish I could tell you.
I'm sorry for what I did.
I didn't mean to.
Wow I have to stop dwelling in the past.
I think it's finally leaving when I think about it
my heart doesn't hurt as much.

Give me a chance?
We can be friends.
Naw, I want something more than friends.
It's not possible?
I understand.
Wait... No I don't.
You can't?
I'll drop it.

I'm stubborn.

I wish I was different.

Like going shopping.
But just for a better person.
New Body.
New Hair.

Speaking of shopping I need new clothes.

Shoplifting is tempting...
Not gonna lie but I was never like that.
friends i guess.

Peer Pressure.

Where are my friends now?

Moved on to new victims.

wanna be friends?
I need some good ones.
Lucky you have all the ones you need.
While I long for some.

You have everything I want.
I think you do it on purpose just to see my blood boil.
You do don't you.
Wish I could punch you.