Wednesday, September 29, 2010

If music be the food of love, play on,
Give me excess of it; that surfeiting,
The appetite may sicken, and so die.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Close your eyes and open your heart.

I need to get away.
I'm tired.
Physically and emotionally.
I need to get out of this rut.
I need someone.
My friends?
No... they are too busy with their own lives.
I'm going to watch 100 hours of Gossip Girl, Modern Family, The O.C, The Hills and Glee.
Stuff my face... feel guilty and run like a loon.
Story of my life.
Good day.
Good night.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Cali Swag.

It's not so hot today it's a little cloudy.You know what makes me happy? I don't find myself caring anymore. Not about you, not about her. Not about either of you. I'm done... I guess it was time. It's a waste of time going after something that doesn't want you. I can say I'm okay. It's well with my soul. Does anyone know when Pretty Little Liars will be on again? I miss it. Oh well, Gossip Girl for now♥

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

You wanna know one thing I hate but always seems to come?
I hate it.
Not like the hate that you love, but honestly hateee itt I can even say I hate it with a passion.
(yeah that bad.)
Because it screws everything up.
And boy do I mean everything.
Aside from that I didn't get a chance to tell you but Monday was a GLORIOUS day(:

Monday, September 13, 2010

Thank you Mr. And Mrs. for taking so LONG to load.

I don't want to sit here and tell you how glorious my day was... but I will(:
I finally know her name.
Yeah it's Jessica.
(and yes that made my day.)
I actually had a talk with her and boy let me tell you.. she is ... well she is something.
She says "whore" ALOT.
Which bugs me.
It's an ugly word besides,
no one says that anymore.
I even had a flashback to when I said that... ah wow creepy.
But yeah it was this morning I got to school early... and I was looking for Sarah, when I spotted her I saw Jessica walking right behind her.
Sarah introduced us... I faked the faskest smile I could.
We had a conv um.... about 5 minutes later I hated her.
I can't believe your into her... are you?
I wish I could just walk up to you and ask you.
"Where did you meet her?, and why do you talk to her?"
Buttt... I couldn't do that... not in a million years.
I have a short story to write for English... I'll write about us.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

I'm blank.
Good night♥
and why doesn't my font work?

Saturday, September 11, 2010

I have no intention of forgetting
I have no intention of letting go.
I have no intention of dissolving my past.
I have no interest in the future.
I have no desire to move on.

So much for happiness right?

I hate you.
I hate you.
I hate you.
Maybe if I repeat this 100 times it'll become t r u e.

Friday, September 10, 2010

I feel like writing about you is feeding my depression.
I need to get over it.
I've decided to look past the imperfections and not care.
Nothings impossible right?
Wish me luck.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

I wonder if people can read minds.
I wonder if you still feel the same way.
I wonder if people can read MY mind.
I wonder if they'd even care.
I wonder why your with her.
I wonder why it's not me.
I wonder why it's over.
I wonder if you even care.
I wonder what she feels when she's with you.
I wonder if she likes you as much as i did.
I wonder if you'll last... enough for her to fall in love with you the same way I did.
I hope not.
I hope she falls over those chunky boots and breaks a leg.
I hope she NEVER gets to fall in love with you.
I hope she moves to another city... another state... HELL another country!
I wish you were mine.
I wanna go back in time and erase all our memories...and maybe, just maybe things would have been better.♥

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

My dear family is coming to visit!
I'm excited(:
I haven't seen them probably like 4 years ago maybe 5.
My parents are going crazy getting everything ready.
It's going to be a busy week.


Tuesday, September 7, 2010

You've broken me d o w n.
You've let me fall.
You've left me for dead.
You've made me less.
You've done everything you possibly could.
Guess what?
I'm still standing.
I've been through the heart-aches and the pain.
But I'm still standing.
Push me down.
I'll just get back up.
Break me down.
I'll heal sooner or later.
Betray me.
I just won't care anymore.

Monday, September 6, 2010

I had a busy weekend.
I love my mom for trying to get me away.
I swear I'm addicted to dress-up games.
I don't care 'cause I love creating outfits even though it's just a game.
I feel better now.
I know I won't tomorrow 'cause I'll see you.
Well time to put on that fake smile and award winning perfect daughter attitude.

Friday, September 3, 2010

What's her name?

The girl your always with now?
Who is she?
I've never seen her.. but then again the school is rather large.
New girl and she's clinging to you.
It bugs me.
I feel like I still belong to you.
Like we belong to each other.
More than each others property.
Soul Mates.
You know it too.
I feel you stare at me when your with her.
When I pretend to ignore you ...when I look at you from the corner of my eye.
Your with her. I'm with my girls.
I laugh ...pretend like I'm not burning up inside.
Do you guys even TALK?
It doesn't look like it.
I'm mad.
Mad at the fact your not mine anymore.
Mad at the fact she's with you now.
I don't even know her name.
It kills me.
I don't bash on other people.
But you... uh you..... make me HATE people.
Why doesn't she change her boots up.
Get cute clothes.
Gah stop it.
It's all YOU.
You make me hate people.
You make me cry.
You make me depressed.
You make me wanna punch walls.
You make me angry.
You make me want to throw everything away.
You make me quit.
You make me stay up at night..
Don't you know how much control you have?
How much POWER?
I hate that I even gave you that power.
Power to my heart...
My soul.
I hate you.
Your poison...