Without a cause.

I'm lost and scared and lonely.

Help me out I'm dying for your love.

Sly boy.

Your sly.

Boy your too sly for your own good.

watch out.

Oh no there's no reason to hide love.

Just sleep with one eye open. ♥

I have been away for too long.

I don't think I'm coming back. ♥

Is there such a thing as too much love?

I caved.

Dear boy,

I love the way you make butterflies come into my tummy. ♥

Adele - Lovesong

Got me through the day. ♥

I'm not me.This isn't the girl I knew before. I'm lost. Confused. Scared. I want you. NEED you. Come to me. Don't go love. Stay. My blood boils. I'm not who I'm supposed to be. This isn't me. It's not me. Not me. Me. Who am I? I don't know. Don't know. Lord, help me. I need YOU. Let go of these demons that have my soul. My soul longs for you. To be free. Free of everything. Darkness cannot blend with light. Don't let it consume me. Consuming me deep. Deep. Gone.

Light.

Light.

Light.

Light

come upon me.

Today is a new day.

I get jealous too fast I know, I'm sorry but I can't help it.

It's something I wish I had more control over.

A new month?

Time flies.

I hope this month is different.

I'm tired love.

Tired of chasin' after you. How 'bout this time you come to me?

I'm thinking of changing some stuff. My wardrobe mainly. Definitely my attitude.

Hm what else? My hair? I always change that. Anyway I'm going to start blogging a lot more I miss it. Work has just been in zeeee way.

That will change.

I'm leaning towards dresses... eh?

And this just reminds me of New Years and how I wish more of my friends dressed up with me. :\

LOVE these shorts.

How am I?

I don't know.

I don't like myself.

There's this huge emptiness just.. it's just there. waiting for me to fill it.

fill it with something.

Your that something.

But yet... yet you walk past me.

I've become just another face in the halls for you.

what will it take for you to notice me again?

Nothing right?

I've tried so hard over the years.

But i'm not worth it anymore?

I'm not worth your love.

No dear.

this isn't how it works.

I gotta stand up.

Chin up.

Up.

Up.

Up.

I have something to tell you... I just can't find the right words.

Tomorrow is mine and my cousins birthday!!! woooooooo.

I'm going to surprise visit her in Utah.

She's gonna love it. Hm I love cousins.

Anyway have a great day.

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY COUSIN LOVE YOU! <3

Her name's Melissa. She's a doll.

(:

Nothing stays the same darling. You were a fool to believe it.

I'm so disappointed with myself.

Jesus... I need help. A lot of help.

Today is a new day.

I feel like I'm lacking something. Like there's something out there that I need to be happy and I don't know where to find it or what it is.

Maybe I do know what it is but it's hard to get it. And what if I'm wrong? What if I don't need it. No... what if I DO need it and it's not hard to get it's just something that... that I can't bring myself to accept. Oh boy it's gonna be a long weekend.

Well I sure am gonna miss high school.

Venice High School... you were so good to me. I learned to survive without the help of all those nasty bitches that were my so called friends. I'm glad I have my few good and true girls with me.

I'm excited to step out into the world and conquer it. Ready to go to college and knock 'em dead.

SOOO ready to start my life.

Here I come.