I have no intention of forgetting

I have no intention of letting go.

I have no intention of dissolving my past.

I have no interest in the future.

I have no desire to move on.

So much for happiness right?

PS.

I hate you.

I hate you.

I hate you.

Maybe if I repeat this 100 times it'll become t r u e.

I feel like writing about you is feeding my depression.

I need to get over it.

I've decided to look past the imperfections and not care.

Nothings impossible right?

Wish me luck.

I wonder if people can read minds.

I wonder if you still feel the same way.

I wonder if people can read MY mind.

I wonder if they'd even care.

I wonder why your with her.

I wonder why it's not me.

I wonder why it's over.

I wonder if you even care.

I wonder what she feels when she's with you.

I wonder if she likes you as much as i did.

I wonder if you'll last... enough for her to fall in love with you the same way I did.

I hope not.

I hope she falls over those chunky boots and breaks a leg.

I hope she NEVER gets to fall in love with you.

I hope she moves to another city... another state... HELL another country!

I wish you were mine.

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I wanna go back in time and erase all our memories...and maybe, just maybe things would have been better.♥

My dear family is coming to visit!
I'm excited(:
I haven't seen them probably like 4 years ago maybe 5.
My parents are going crazy getting everything ready.
It's going to be a busy week.

-xoxo

You've broken me d o w n.

You've let me fall.

You've left me for dead.

You've made me less.

You've done everything you possibly could.

Guess what?

I'm still standing.

I've been through the heart-aches and the pain.

But I'm still standing.

Push me down.

I'll just get back up.

Break me down.

I'll heal sooner or later.

Betray me.

I just won't care anymore.

I had a busy weekend.

I love my mom for trying to get me away.

I swear I'm addicted to dress-up games.

I don't care 'cause I love creating outfits even though it's just a game.

I feel better now.

I know I won't tomorrow 'cause I'll see you.

Well time to put on that fake smile and award winning perfect daughter attitude.

What's her name?

The girl your always with now?

Who is she?

I've never seen her.. but then again the school is rather large.

New girl and she's clinging to you.

It bugs me.

I feel like I still belong to you.

Like we belong to each other.

More than each others property.

Soul Mates.

You know it too.

I feel you stare at me when your with her.

When I pretend to ignore you ...when I look at you from the corner of my eye.

Your with her. I'm with my girls.

I laugh ...pretend like I'm not burning up inside.

Do you guys even TALK?

It doesn't look like it.

WOW.

I'm mad.

Mad at the fact your not mine anymore.

Mad at the fact she's with you now.

I don't even know her name.

It kills me.

I don't bash on other people.

But you... uh you..... make me HATE people.

Why doesn't she change her boots up.

Get cute clothes.

Gah stop it.

You;

You.

You.

It's all YOU.

You make me hate people.

You make me cry.

You make me depressed.

You make me wanna punch walls.

You make me angry.

You make me want to throw everything away.

You make me quit.

You make me stay up at night..

Don't you know how much control you have?

How much POWER?

I hate that I even gave you that power.

Power to my heart...

My soul.

UHHHHH.

I hate you.

Your poison...